New from the States

Hello! Bengjie from IL, US

I’m 35, with CMD. . at times i feel blessed for having this all my life.. in the sense that, i cant imagine myself not having the issues i have had. .. . i cant imagine what it feels like to be strong, then not. . .i mean, in a sense i do.. .because i’ve used a wheel chair off and on.. . use a cane now and for the last 7 years..wow. .that long already. . … .. .but, i’ve had 35 years to just become “ok” with everything. .dont get me wrong. .it got issues :p but for the most part, i’m grateful for this point of view. . i have a close family that, as individuals, we are are very selfish. ..prideful..arrogant and not very humble and more often than not, a bit rude. … but for the most part we’re good folks. .. but, there are days i shake my head, and wonder what kind of jerk i’d be if i didn’t have CMD. ..i was lucky enough to go to an MDA camp every summer since from 9 to 18 and i cherrished being with the other kids, it helped me feel not so alone, helped me understand myself a bit more and more than anything, helped me be ok with beign disabled.. lord knows how much i hatee not being able to do the things i wanted to.. or had to. . . i’m rambling i ramble. ok. ..Hello again!